So I've just finished listening to the "master copy" of Platinum Dragon17 - Meaning of the Dreams. And after much contemplation and headache, I think it's safe to say that FINALLY THE ALBUM IS DONE.

Did I just say that??

Yeah, I went back to each song and listened to them and tweaked them and remastered them and changed EQ and compression and levels and all that extra production business that you probably don't really care about... or understand.

So yeah, the album is done... well, sorta. I've had a cover design in the works for a bit but I think I need to work on some minor details and then print off a few and see how they turn out.

Release date? I don't know yet. I will be processing the album through CDBaby, the same company that sells my current releases for both Platinum Dragon17 and Bullet of Reason albums; when they're uploaded and ready to be bought then I will send links your way and that's the official release date, lol.

Will it be available through iTunes and other digital means? I sure as hell hope so!

Is there an ETA as to when you can get the album? I'm seriously hoping to get it all up and running by the end of July.

Will I be bringing a copy home with me when I come to visit? Yes. So for those who I will be meeting up with, if you want to take a listen/preview of the album, I can do my best to arrange that (but I can't promise it because I'm probably going to be stupid busy when I come back for the week).

What's the style? As always, I try to combine many elements together to create a unique style. I will admit that I've moved away from the dark and harsh tones of the older Platinum Dragon17 material (but that's why Bullet of Reason was born). This album is electronic. That's probably the best way to put it. Melodic tones, different progressions and speeds. There should be at least one song on the album that you/everyone can relate to. Overall, I would say that it's a lighter album than the others, but there is still the fusion of sounds that is Platinum Dragon17.

How many tracks? 17

Track list:

1. Puzzle Pieces
2. This Dream World
3. Different Days (The Test)
4. [I'm Here] Taking a Walk Through The Sand
5. Intertwined
6. Lies
7. One Winged Angel [Remix]
8. Never Stay Down
9. Want to Know
10. Source to Survive
11. Twisted
12. Wounds Left
13. Leaves Me Blind
14. Here In My Heart [Right From The Start]
15. Emergency [Emptiness]
16. Transform
17. The Mind Sleeps

And there you have it... a complete update on the album. More updates to come as time passes. Feel free to contact me and ask questions. I will do my best to answer them.

... Until next update

So I've just completed a new song for Bullet of Reason...

And before you start yelling at me about it not being a completed album for Platinum Dragon17, don't worry. If all goes as planned, there should be a new album avaliable mid-July to early August.

More details to come!

Want to hear the new Bullet of Reason song? Here ya go!


Chaotika - Bullet of Reason

'Effin Awesome!!

WHOO that went over well :) Hopefully the stress is done........

.... probably not

The big project draws near. Tomorrow is the time to put back on my presentation skills, get up in front of the audience and kick some ass. 30 minutes of hell? Probably...

Bring it on... Come get some.

Ok, I understand that in the morning driving can be chaotic due to high amounts of traffic. But when there really is no reason, that pisses me off.

Now can someone tell me why a slight change of weather drives people insane instead of actually getting them to drive? Come on people it was a friggin light mist! It doesn't fucking burn the flesh. DRIVE GOD DAMNIT! And while you're at it, DRIVE SENSIBLY! Signal please...

Fuck people are dumb on the roads. AND DON'T STOP TO LOOK! KEEP MOVING ASSHOLE! People have important things do to and places to be. Ok, so there was an extremely minor bump on the bumper. SO WHAT?! Keep moving. Jesus H-Fucking Christ it pisses me off so much!

And that's my morning.

I don't even mind the rain. I like it. But it drives people insane!

Yesterday my sweetheart came over and we decided to take some pictures. She was willing to do a set that I've been wanting to do for so very long and I love how they turned out! Check 'em out.





And then we did a nice one, without the guns :P


Thanks Katty for taking these uber sexy shots with me! <3

This week has been stressful to the max. I'm finding myself a little snappy and I'm not enjoying it. There were some up and downs and a lot of things getting to my head.

I feel like it's about to explode...

I don't even want to list the stuff that's been happening. If you really must know, then by all means ask. I'm also just to lazy to type it all down.

I'm sleepy, and want my baby back in my arms to keep me sane!

<3 For you baby <3

On the random note, Capoeira lessons totally kicked ass... not to mention, kicked my ass at the same time. Though enjoyable, my ankle is in pain. Oh well, it comes with the lessons :)

My mind is going numb from all the deadlines and due-dates and all the assignments. It's really starting to get to me and I think I'm letting it affect me a bit to much.

This morning, my mom told me to calm down so that I don't have a nervous breakdown. I haven't heard her say that to me in quite some time. I've gotta relax. This assignment coming up in the next week is starting to get to me. Once when that's done, I think I'll be alright.

I hope...

Thanks Katty for helping me along the way. I love you <3

School is totally kicking my ass. All the assignments right now are leaving their marks all over my body. The stress is painful.

But deep down inside, I like it for some morbid reason.

Man this is one helluva ride!

[EDIT]

grrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhHHHH!!!

Does nothing want to f&#*%ing work for me today? First the 'effin PowerPoint, then I run out of printer paper, then I run out of staples, then my guitar strings break (and I don't have anymore guitar strings), I didn't get a chance to trim my hair today though I feel like i'm about to pull it all out!!!!

F(*&@#$ BALLS S_!t GOD DAMNIT!

...I need a hug...

That was hella interesting.... But I'm glad it happened.

The Hour was awesome. Katty and I went down to the first taping of this season and it was pretty cool. Wouldn't mind going again actually. Perhaps sometime soon? Maybe. I'll finish my projects first (which are KILLING ME) and then I figure it out. Hell, it's free and George knows us (gotta love being from Humber... WIN).

Stayed the night with Katty. That was good times. Went to sleep late, and decided that we couldn't get out of bed this morning. It was so comfy and she was so warm. She makes for a nice pillow :P I know you're reading this right now baby as I post this in class since you're beside me looking over my shoulder. I don't mind though, and yes I know I made a type-o. I'll fix that now... See, done :)

Love you baby :D

WEEEE! Good luck again today with your on air shift. Don't let your cold kick your ass on air :P

*poof*

I'm sitting here in my computer chair. The only light that shines here is the glow from my monitor as I type away. My eyes are closed, but my fingers move as I relay my thoughts on to the screen. I haven't had one of these moments in such a long time. No worries though, there's nothing wrong. I used to get these before and it would put me in such an interesting mood. It's times like these where I can embrace the shadows around me feel their power; yet I'm not forgetting the lighter side of my mind that tends to haunt me from time to time. Yes, the lighter side can haunt me, just as the dark can. Though right now, neither side is distracting me. I'm almost in between both "personalities". Have I finally been able to control it? Have I been able to merge both the light and darker sides of me together to call it my own... to call it me? Perhaps. If this is true, on a personal note this is a huge accomplishment. It's only taken me a large number of years to be able to understand each side; understand why they exist and the effects they have on me and the people around me.

"Have I lost you yet?"

Though I am alone in my basement right now, without my wonderful girlfriend here beside me.... I can almost feel her. Maybe it's because of her that I've been able to control the personalities. She's the reason why I smile... I actually smile in pictures and actually mean it. It's hard to believe, but it's taken 21 years to be able to do that. I've never felt happier.

"Interesting transition into my love life from embracing the shadows around me... meh. This is how I feel, so I go with whatever comes to mind."

I should sleep. Go off into my dream world of interesting problems and tasks that need to be completed in order to move on in my dream-life. Funny, though sleeping would put me into a dream world, I feel like right now I'm in one already. Is this really all a dream? Has this actually happened to me? Where I finally feel complete? But there is so much more to discover. Perhaps that's why I'm complete. I understand what there is ahead of me even though I don't know what it truly is.

"I think I've lost myself in my own thoughts"

To find such a source... such a fuel... an energy... it's a privilege. Thank you...

The written portion of my so-called trance ends here. So now I lay myself down to sleep, where I will find myself interacting with my trance - my dream - and perhaps all the answers I seek will appear. Maybe they won't.

"Whatever the case... I love these moments. The dark and the light are combined... Now let's see where it leads me. As long as you're beside me, I know I'll be safe."

mmm, it's been all to long since I've had me some good Bawls. It's a drink, trust me... http://www.bawls.com/

I'm in class right now with my sweetheart beside me. She's probably reading this entry on and off since you can hear me typing slightly louder than the teacher talking in class. I love you muffin! I hope your voice starts getting better.

I wanna buy more Bawls later... mmm, Bawls.

Congrats muffin on your first actual on-air shift. You did so well! I'll be sure to listen for you on your other shifts. Love you baby!!

http://radio.humber.ca

If you want to listen, she's on tomorrow from 6pm - 9pm and Wednesday and Thursday at the same time!

W00t!

Wake up. Have a shower. Get dressed. Eat breakfast. Pack clothes. Call Katty. Drive to Katty. Unpack clothes. Try to find information for homework. Call manager. Do random things with Katty. Party like hell. Go back to Katty. Sleep. Wake up. Have a shower. Get dressed. Eat breakfast. Pack clothes. Call home. Go home, with Katty. Do random things........... from there I have no idea what's happening.

Just felt like listing what's going on. WEEE!

Sleep... I could really use some of it right about now considering I've got to wake up early tomorrow morning as I have a class which starts at 9 in the morning. But yet, I can't seem to move my lazy ass off the computer chair and get into my comfy bed and go into my little dream world where I find myself flying and levetating and doing weird acrobatics with some random plot.

Sleep... maybe in a few minutes. Probably after this song is done...

See you tomorrow baby! <3

School starts in what feels like a matter of hours (though really two days). As a producer of the radio station at Humber, I and a few other people have been given the honour of creating a new sound and image for the station. This is quite the huge task considering that it relies on us now to make the station sound better than it already is. So I guess it's time to take over!

Sweet...

Other than that, I'm pretty excited to get back into the school routine. With my program and choice of pathway (production) I can't complain at all considering I highly enjoy it. I sometimes don't even look at it like school; more like fun. Hopefully that isn't a bad thing... I guess as long as I don't let it get to my head.

On another note, I can't really think about what I can update the world with. I've been spending a lot of time with Katty which is always a good thing and she's coming along extremely well with her wisdom teeth. The stitches were removed and the healing process is going exactly as planned. We went out with my parents and had a good time, and done a couple of random things here and there.

And now it's lunch time and I'm hungry. Until next update...

A day after her surgery she seems to be doing alright. I did all that I could to take care of her yesterday. I even made her a little fort on her bed made out of pillows just to make sure that she doesn't bang her face into anything hard. I received a phone call from her a few minutes ago and she can at least talk. The gauze doesn't really help, but she can at least speak. The swelling is fine and there is no bruising that we can see. So everything is looking good for my baby :D

Tomorrow is her move-in day to rez. I don't think she'll be helping much when it comes to picking up the boxes and such (nor would I let her). But I hope we can do it tomorrow and get it over and done with.

I love you babe, and I'll be there whenever you need me. I'm coming again tomorrow regardless of the moving. If I didn't have to work, I'd be there right now. Take care muffin, you'll be fine <3